Dear Humanity,

xoxo, Nessar
ps. 2011, i love you.

"Always seek out the seed of triumph in every adversity." - Og Mandino

(first few moments of 2011)

i had these developed weeks ago, but finally found some downtime to scan em all onto this piece of crap robot i call my laptop. i need rice. pronto! excuse that random outburst of food want''s, and this pointless effort to explain myself, but i always type what im thinking. and don't really care to backspace it into something, i dont know, more than incompetent? i'm lacking in creativity, despite my 3am sketch sessions, and my therapeutic writes to myself before i sleep almost every night, it seems no match to my ghoul mode. i need inspiration, not just for my own satisfaction, but .. well yes, mostly for my own satisfaction lol. beside's having an insanity block, and actually acting like a civilized 17 year old girl! im doing fan-fu**ing-tastic! and i get my tshirt sample (from this post) in 7-10 working day's! along with my new dslr camera in 3-4 working days! getting excited xoxoxoxo

04.10

(Day dreaming and Im thinkin' of you)

picture is me being 16, seems like yonkers ago but it wasn't .. i just exaggerate my age too much

but on a lovely note:

♥ everything's going ever so well ..

Mer du Japon (The Teenagers Remix)

The rest of the picture's from Week 2's preview. I cannot friggen stress how much i adore this lady! from, free bus trips and trying to decode strange african guys pick up lines, to taking her boyfriends car on a 5 hour joy ride, whilst being thoroughly disappointed in Mc Donald's lack of menu (thanks alot flood's, you were cute! until you messed with Maccaz!) to conversation's and conspiracy's to just chilling in my messy ass room bumping Tinie Tempah and Blu & exile. Chin Chen day in a nutshell. xoxo - also, excuse my fugly face in the bottom picture, i actually loved being spun around regardless of my skirt flying almost above my head. not even exaggerating! .. of coarse im exaggerating, but you know what i mean ..

KMovie Deprivation at it's Minimum

(Movies from left to right: Innocent Steps, Daisy, Love me Not, The Classic, Hello Schoolgirl, My Little Bride, A Moment to Remember, Temptation of the Wolves, Do Re Mi Fa So La Si Do & Fourth Period Mystery)

I AM CONVINCED that i have a huge problem with foreign entertainment, whether it be Japanese Anime, or British Sitcom's it doesn't even come close to my obsession with KMovies. im phasing where i need to watch one every night otherwise i fear for my dreams. - one time, i didn't watch a Kmovie before bed, and i had a shit house nightmare about pb&j and the end of my life! hahaha i know that's an invalid justification for my Kmovie behaivour as of late, but it will have to do! beyond that, i feel like watching these are bringing out the romantic in me (and the vulgarly twisted side where i want to find a long lost brother and kill him for his inheritance, then get rich and famous, do something drastic and become blind, then meet a sweet young boy who works in my mansion, and be horrible and cruel to him, find out his mother's dieing with some unheard of disease, comfort him and fall in love with him, then 2 years later get sick with the same disease as his mother, say beautiful things and then die dramatically after making him cry hysterically) <-- and if that didn't convince you of my new found influence, you need to be in school! don't trip .. this will pass ... but until then, i will continue to fall off the face of the earth circa the hours 11pm - 5am.

Dear Nate & Taku, youse will truly be the death of me, xoxo NON.

W/2

WEEK 2:
with my beautiful wifey, Grace.
Blu & Exile - The World Is (Below the Heavens)

Currently:

eating peanut m&m's and text festing my address box. not for any particular reason, more less to chill while i wait for dinner.

In other worldly new's, my country is getting ass raped by floods at the moment, my state to be more specific, and a few of my friend's have already been kicked out of their homes to run like a bitch hahaha excuse me, i've been clowning the situation all week. i mean, yeah omg! freak out! theres a flood! and don't take those words lightly, people in my area are definately freaking out ..

today at work, a man bought 3 trolley loads of water .. OF WATER. oh yeah, that's cute and totally freaking greedy but buying WATER, in a time of a FLOOD. does anyone else not see the irony?! .. that's cool though, 3 trolley load water guy. that's cool. another lady, went shit house spaztik because we didn't have bread, umm excuse you and your tone and your 3 size too small blouse but i dont care if you dont like my attitude, and i dont care if we should have bread. point blank, yo ass ate it all 300 pound lady, so just take your 300$ worth of grocery shopping and shut the fuck up. GEEZ. anyone who knows me IRL knows i do not respond well to large women with attitudes. future reference. ANYWAY amongst clowning our country, and their "flood disaster plan" which pretty much sums up too "wait until the flood comes your way, then run like a bitch" me and my brother realized, we don't even have a plan for when god realizes he wants to drown us too! hahaha laughed at ourselves for being so unorganized and then later stressed how much we don't need a plan, because this flood biz isnt all that .. i low key ... thought of a plan, a few at that.

• Get more in touch with my black roots and hijack a yacht.
• Nitrogen Gun. *nuff said*
• Contact Mr.Xavier to experiment on me, and give me mutant abilities.
• Snorkel Gear!
• Convince Poseidon to make me his mistress, and then live as an underwater princess
• Nitrogen Gun.
• Hot Air Balloon.
• Raise the Sharks at Sea World as my own, and use them to attack people with better plans than mine.
• Nitrogen Gun.
• "Nîn o Chithaeglir lasto beth daer; Rimmo nîn Bruinen dan in Ulaer!" *10 points for people who know where i quoted this!*
• Wear latex costumes, and hope for the best.

Please feel free to bite my plan's, for the people who are being effected by the flood's :* and if anyone wants to be recruited into my Nitrogen Gun Army, please leave your name in the comment's, we accept everyone.

To anyone who doesn't understand me, don't take this too seriously, i admit to only writting post blurbs for Nate and Taku's personal interest, and foolishly pay no mind to the rest of the audience, in an actual sense of sincerity i do pray for the people being hassled by such turns of event's. Ill bake youse all cupcakes and cuddles for the calm after the storm xoxoxo

"There's only one thing young ladies should be inserting in themselves ...and that's knowledge." - Nathan Young

okay! im done playing with a 'new look' if you will, which evidently helped me acquire the new nickname NONessar, or NON for short ♥ 10 points for anyone who know's where the name comes from :* but i managed to ombre my hair out like i mentioned, im betting this will last about a month and ill die it back to black haha but until then, sandwhich - misfits re-runs (which ive come to the realization that im obsessed with, ive repeatedly watched both seasons atleast 13 times in a period of 5 months .. dear nessar, get a grip!) - milk - then bed! xoxo

The Blackberry Diaries

(PICTURE ABOVE, PROOF THAT THE RED RING FOR XBOX IS REAL!!)

W/1

WEEK 1:
NYE, Kara & Nessar flour fight
M-FLO - A.D.D.P

• attempting to participate in the '52 weeks of snapshots' this year, but in true Nessar fashion, ill also post a song each week that is either from my Most Played Playlist, or just something i was feeling at that moment :) though, im still yet to sort out my new dslr camera, the first few picture's will probably be of poor quality .. or from my disposable camera tray :)

new year, new .. hair?

i've been meaning to chop my hair off for the passed year, but .. was just too lazy to do so? but today after drooling over s**t kingz video's, and watching cute hipster girls flick their short locks around, i (literally) stood up, grabbed a pair of scissors and chopped a huge ponytail off. yay! later tonight i might finally get around to ombre'ing my ends like i mentioned 10 months ago ..

2010 x Flickr

HAPPY BELATED NEW YEAR!